I did not realize how hurt I am about everything that has happened so far this year in regards to you and I. I’m lost in the pain of you choosing someone else and the choice to… basically destroy us and our future. All I can think about is how you would decided to go this route…

Why wasn’t I good enough?
How did I fail?
Why didn’t you want me?
What wasn’t enough?
I wasn’t enough?
Why didn’t you pick me?
I didn’t have enough to offer you?
I didn’t make you laugh enough?
I didn’t make you smile?
I didn’t make you feel passion? Love?
I didn’t cook for you and take care of you?
I didn’t dream with you and HELP you build your dreams?
We didn’t dream together and help each other?
I didn’t comfort you?
I wasn’t loyal enough, not lying and seeing other men even through everything?
I judged you too much?
Did I not love you enough?

You just… didn’t want me. And so be it.

This little girl, not woman, was so important to you that you needed to reconnect with her rather than to be with me? To go backwards, again, rather than forward?

I think I’m in shock.

This will be the last time you make me feel like I’m not good enough by choosing another woman instead of a future with me.

You’d think that would be enough to make me feel better but it isn’t. It is painful. I’m full of sadness.