It’s Saturday, June 15, 2024: perfect 74 degrees, no humidity… I’ve opened all the windows in my place and expect the breeze and this writing to clear the air. Clear my head and
There is nothing I wanted more than anything in the last 5+ years than to be by your side, always. I wanted to be in love, you loving me and me loving you. Creating our safe place. A place where we
This recent accusation that I “withhold” pictures and lingerie from you, purposely is so infuriating that I felt the need to remind you of the factual history of me and you and wearing
A year and some days. I’m disappointed in myself and mad at myself more than anything. One year ago I’m making a post about the wine trail and how of course we ended because of another
I’ve been holding on to these passports for weeks now considering what to do. We started it together, twice now. We tried before… do you remember how that ended? Fuck I’m actually
I miss you calling me Muffin. I loved the feeling of closeness. I thought you loved it… and well loved me too. It happened so organically. But idk… I loved you. All I know is I loved you
Really fucking miss you today. I miss the good. Just the good. Just the one isolated day where we just get lost and hug and kiss and sing and laugh and the warmth and the I thought I felt. And
I see now I never finished our story. I could now since it is over. The end just mirrored the same cycle, so no cliffhanger, twist, or happy ending. I should have know. Speaking to my therapist, she
I can’t even tell you when or how we reconnected. Oh. I had to go to Greysons. I really would have avoided it if I could have. We end up meeting up. Stupid. I say stupid because we really
I’m back. Been a few days. Today is a bit dark for me. Day after Valentines day… yes a stupid fucking holiday. It is. But you can’t say it doesn’t have meaning. In the long